yesterday

there was a time

yesterday

when i thought that

the joy of an embrace

would melt my soul

i hungered for a glance that would

see the beauty of my eyes, my lips

i dreamed of the day

yesterday

when i could wake and

gently kiss the

eyelids of my lover

walking my fingers across

his soul

brushing the curve of his back

with my spirit

this morning

today

my heart yearns to see the

face of the

divine Father

His pure presence

the simplicity of His love

leaving me awash in

unfathomable delight

here, now

today

my soul wishes to know

the beauty of my Master

to free fall into His spirit, wrapped in His arms,

safely nestled under His wing

fully aware that He is

incapable of not loving me

yesterday, today, tomorrow

i belong to Him

amen

 

*i wrote this poem such a long time ago now...2004....and then included it in my first poetry book in 2008!  i still love this poem. it keeps me focused on what is necessary, what is true, what is right. love. true love, its necessary*

 

Copyright 2008 Regina Y. evans All Rights Reserved (from the poetry book Nonnie And The Butterfly)

the garden life

i was listening to a sermon by td jakes. for some christian folks they will know him as a prominent preacher. well, i don't exactly go to church..much. pretty much never anymore. so i kinda know him as the "youtube" preacher! he has some really great sermons. anyway, i was listening to this sermon the other day and he said this "there are those of you who have grown to despise your own heart." and as those word floated out of his mouth they pinged me in my spirit. hard.......

.....he said that those with a huge capacity to love often feel weak..because they get knocked over, abused, betrayed etc, etc. i know all of these things...as do many of us. i have wanted to be a warrior kinda chick. but in truth i am not. i am not the "imma pray against you" type of chick. I am more the "im gonna pray for you and help you even though you tried to screw my life up" kinda chick. and truth be told...that is a painful posture. however.......

.......when i heard those words...it just felt so great. so i have decided to stop despising my heart of love and to stop wishing for a warrior chicks heart. i don't have it. i have really tried. ive been extremely angry that i dont have that kinda heart, in fact! however, as i ponder...wow...am i glad that i am not burdened with such a thing. hearts like that can be prime territory for pride. ive seen it. up close and personal. a terrible beast it can be. even seems like strength. but doesn't Christ say "my power is made perfect in your weakness?" so, hey, i reckon that He, Christ, is on to something and i rather flow in that river. 

 

....so in my attempt to not wanna entertain a beast in my spirit...i've decided to LOVE my heart of love. to delve into it more. see what this thing in me is all about. i reckon the best place to do so is in a beautiful garden.

stay true. to you.

everything thing gon be alright.

the heart should always remember to laugh and smile. it is what it is. love.

LOVE

A Friend Named Trust

this morning as the sun tickled my spirit awake

it dawned on me that i had never thanked it for its divine power

its rays never fail to embrace my face with a calming warmth

incapable of forsaking my smile

each moment my soul trusts

in its illuminating beauty

at the noon hour as i passed by a fragrant field of flowers

i realized that i had never bowed down to its glory

its loveliness never ceasing to delight

unable to not bless my desiring eye

every minute my heart trusts

in the love of its

embracing aroma

as darkness falls the faithful moon will remind the sky of pure beauty

teaching the stars lessons of wisdom and strength

they will learn that God’s lunar expects nothing

seeking only to give the gift of light, of life

in appreciation,

i will lift my hands in praise

honoring the free flowing love

which has set my being upon the heights

i will hold my friend named Trust gently as He leaves

a trail of grace and faith upon my heart

forever kissing Him in gratitude

amen

Copyright 2008 Regina Y. Evans All Rights Reserved (from the poetry book Nonnie And The Butterfly)

You Know

dear Lord

where have my eyes been

where has my spirit rested

how could I have denied myself

the delight of loving you

i have no words

but, yet you know

i wake in the day’s dawn

loving you

completely

sending kisses

towards the heavens

as my lids shut

to the night’s darkness

boldly in love

yes

you know

dear Lord

do you hear the love

in my heart

can you see the desire

in my eyes

are you sensing the delight

in my soul

i ask you

do you know

you know

is my love

for you definable

please understand

i ache to know you

to see the beauty of your grace

do you know

dear Father

you know

the love of my heart

is profoundly

beyond thought surpassing comprehension

it is the peace of

resting in your

gentle wing

the sweetness of your

warm embrace

do you feel the depths

of my love

for you

i can give you

nothing

in comparison to the

love, joy, mercy

that has been placed in my

being

yet

you love me so

how wonderful

because

you know

you know

Copyright 2008 Regina Y. Evans All Rights Reserved (From the published book Nonnie And The Butterfly)

Free Fallin'

sometimes

evry once in a moonshine blue

the soul tingles a

"man dis here s'alright. it s'alright now chile"

sing it! smile me tenderly. joy!

me, my babies

unusual birth rebirth

theys here now. ain't that cool?!

wrapped in the wondrous

how i got over

and let me tell ya'll

wasnt nuthin easy bout it,

getting here

to the afterbirth zone

listen to me tell,

i had ta fight mightily,

struggle for des here lil ones

(and fo me too)

deys mine, i der momma for sure

eye's born, theys born too

at a great price

ain't no falseness in that spin

didn't hardly
no body wanna know,

or unerstand

but you,
 (and a few)
Lawd

thank you kindly, Sir.

wHooo weeE,

here me when i say,

me and mine, progeny

scratched, clawed, softly

up from the earth's core

eyes leaking salt,
hurt but steady

 the whole way,

and that's a long yard while

i remember!

we's all hanged on ta my back

fer da ride, wudn't let go,

wrapped up inside my womb

and back again

worked as one, me and my mine

had to.

wanted desperately to see,

breathe the light of freely

ran, ran, and some mo'

kep it up

like pace arrows

on some 24 days

we moved so fast that

we beat the devil running!

now we keep breezin

on unexplainable peace
yes. thank ya. Jesus man

yous s'alright.

i watch, i'm watching
 my babies
float on my fingertips,

they scribbling out a

new taste
necessary

the triple unbroken circle
smiled

me too

culdn't help it

cus Lawd, i's wild

and freely

free fallin

Copyright 2010 Regina Y. Evans All Rights Reserved (From the published book "Nothing Cool about Ten" by Regina Y. Evans. Available http://www.smashwords.com/)

BoooOwwww

if you are building your life, ministry, organization, country, family, etc without a great and deep abiding love for those actually in your sphere...what, in fact, have you gained? anything at all? something of truth? think. think. can you reach for love and, at the same time, erase another's heart? there was once a song. some hated it. some thought of it "Wow!"  i remember it well. went something like this : "ice ice baby, too cold, too cold." Brrrrrrrr.

Pride. it is a dream stealer. and if you are ever faced with it head on? keep walking in love, stay humble (though it may hurt), hold fast to your dreams, do what cha gotta do. Basically this: LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH.

Smile. Don't forget to smile.

peace

"The Man In The Arena" by Teddy Roosevelt (Quote)

Note: It is so easy to look at someone on their path and throw the darts of criticism at their head, back, sides, etc. But what I admire is someone who "gets in the game". "Win" or "Lose". Because either way? Wisdom has whispered in that person's ear.

Have a read of the quote below. It so spoke to my heart. And a hearty "Here! Here!" to all the folks out there who dare to STEP. -peace

"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat." Teddy Roosevelt, "The Man in the Arena"

a writing

There has been so much death to my life. Too much to comprehend. Loss knocks around within the walls of my heart leaving a searing emptiness to My Me. Shaken to my core by posers who mockingly toss the word "friend" upon my face. My pain grimaces as it slips, slides and tumbles down the terrain of my being. Leaving scars and slices of intimidation. The end of its journey sees it languishing upon the earth. Forming a laughing pattern of betrayal. Pilfering my everything into a state of insecurity and barrenness.


Indeed I had arrived at Ms. Ithaka and found her poor. But Cavafy* was correct. She had no intention of fooling my soul. You see, Wisdom is Ms. Ithaka's rightful name, and she remains my greatest teacher.

She blew pearls into my eyes until I acknowledged the scintillating shadow cast by my lack. I watched its dark glimmer dance beautifully in delightful irony. Holding court with previously buried secrets now twirling in the balm of restoration. I squinted closely, beholding the beginning outline of a smile. Here, I paused for thought. I watched as the sky travailed out a beam called perception. The veil ripped gently downside the middle revealing the precipice of a simple truth: I wildly exist. And powerfully so.

See my poetic:

she cannot forget

her beautifully rich nature, placed in her

by the divine kiss of love

painting her ethos and culture

upon the traverse of the world's

open field. her true destiny

all notions of freedom

emblazoned and ingrained

upon her hands.

the blood of her heart

writing out its roadmap

of breaking forth for

the generations yet to come

yes, she remembers

she will always remember

and every mountain will be leveled

for she, the weary

and the rugged places made plain

for her, the weak

the recompense of justice

Copyright 2010 All Rights reserved. From the published book: "Nothing Cool About Ten" by Regina Y. Evans

*For reference to the poem Ithaka, by Cavafy go to this link to read it in its entirety: http://homepage.newschool.edu/~wrightd/cavafy-ithaka.html

shush child

leaning into quiet

the necessary spot of create

space to be for a chime

intergrity of spirit

finds its cool

in just being

without a shout

peace

Copyright 2010 Regina Y. Evans All Rights Reserved (From the Poetry Book: Nothing Cool About Ten)

clawin'

yesterday i was watchin

some what looked like crabs

seemed  like they was dancing

but i saw steam float

and decided against that notion

they was sure nuff angry

bout something

dont even think they knew

stepping on the tother's ones back

tryin ta jump up

a half inch at a tock

and down again

seemed so strange

i didnt understand

dont think i ever will

dont want to

i rather be looking

at da sun

peace

Copyright 2010 Regina Y. Evans All Rights Reserved (From the poetry book "Nothing Cool About Ten")

Re-Lyt

He ribboned

the hues of His heart

into the hope of your promise

blew into your fingers

the techniques of compassion

covering your very being

with the strength to stand

and then one day

He determined, called

you to traverse upon the

ladder placed upon the earth's

vertical wall

your toes responded

the waters drew back

drying their tears

as you tipped into

their rocky river bed of

dangerous faith

your each step reverberating out

the cries of perserverance

dotting the blazing horizon

with the covenant of life

the open seal of the graceful

blue above sponging your crown

the fascination of rebirth

the strength to walk long

the journey of a precipice

birthed during the climb

create

Copyright 2010 Regina Y. Evans, All Rights Reserved, from the published book "Nothing Cool About Ten" by Regina Y. Evans

listen

the wisp and glimmer

of existence

stands under an open door

she raises her face to receive the

reign of kisses that birth

an utterly new day

focus, tossed up

left behind, tossed out

necessary gaze


____________________




Copyright 2010 Regina Y. Evans
All Rights Reserved
(From the poetry book: "Nothing Cool About Ten")

pouring your own cuppa tea

i have decided that one of my pet peeve's is someone who is too afraid to get out there, tell their own story, create with the giftings that has been given to them. instead they latch onto "other than" them/their. they begin to co-opt the "other than" so much so that they begin to see it as one. all the while passing up the beauty that remains in them/he/she. it sleeps. dormant. with a thick coat of dust. waiting to see the warmth and light of day.

there is no power or courage in that. pour your own cup of tea. the change for many rest within that realm.

life offers many mountains to climb. and many of those peaks rests within the beauty of the stories visited by the individual self.

ya feel me?

own your own.

do and be YOU.

one thumbprint. one sound. joins into the heart of many.

well, that is my rant for the day. DO YOU. because there is beauty there. always

peace

Thank you for supporting Echo: A Poetic Journey into Justice

I just wanted to take the time to thank the many individuals and organizations who came out to support the Berkeley, Ca and San Francisco, Ca showings of Echo: A Poetic Journey into Justice. Our hope with the production was to bring awareness to how our youth in this country are brutalized by sex trafficking/slavery. We are grateful for the many people who came out to network, learn about the issue, and join in the fight.

My utmost gratitude to my friends at Central Works Theater, Berkeley Ca and the members of City of Refuge United Church of Christ, San Francisco, Ca for donating their space for the performances. Amazing!

I am also thankful and grateful to the many organizations who came out to support this project: Not For Sale Campaign, MISSSEY, DreamCatchers Homeless and Runaway Youth Services, The Renew Project, Epic Bloom, Freedom House, Because Justice Matters, Chab Dai, CA Against Slavery, Project Exodus, and Out of Egypt.

Please look for us next year for our 2011 performances. In the meantime I will be working on some new poetry...amd maybe a play or two!

God bless.

Peace

Regina

SF Showings! Echo: A Poetic Journey into Justice (Save These Dates!)

Don't forget to save these dates: October 9th and October 16th. Echo: A Poetic Journey into Justice (a Stage Play to bring awareness to the issues of sex trafficking) will show at the City of Refuge, United Church of Christ, 1025 Howard St, San Francisco, Ca. Show times are 7pm. In advance tickets are 10 dollars, at the door 15 dollars. In advanced tickets are available here: http://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/125312

(please read below for more detailed information about the play..including our Berkeley premiere, who we support financially, etc)

**Echo: A Poetic Journey into Justice is a Progeny Theater Project Production**

peace

Echo: A Poetic Journey Into Justice (October Shows!)

Echo: A Poetic Journey Into Justice will be returning to the stage October 9th and 16th, 7pm at City of Refuge United Church of Christ, San Francisco, 1025 Howard St (between 6th and 7th Avenues). Tickets are 15 dollars in advanced or at the door (if you cannot pay, you will not be turned away). Tickets will go on sale at www.brownpapertickets.com on Sept 1. We hope to see you at one of the shows. Lastly, please come with your questions as there will be a question and answer time after the performance. Thank you and see you at the show! -peace

free indeed

she cannot forget

her beautifully rich nature, placed in her

by the divine kiss of love

painting her ethos and culture

upon the traverse of the world's

open field.
the place of her true destiny.

all notions of freedom

emblazoned and ingrained

upon her hands.

the blood of her heart

writing out its roadmap

of breaking forth for

the generations yet to come

yes, she remembers

she will always remember

and every mountain will be leveled

for she, the weary

and the rugged places made plain

for her, the weak

and the recompense of justice and mercy

now begins to reign


free. ly.


rainrainrainrainrainrainrain

(from the poetry book 10-ish by Regina Evans)

Echo: A Poetic Journey Into Justice (Information)

Echo: A Poetic Journey Into Justice is a theater performance designed to bring awareness to the horrific circumstances surrounding sex slavery/trafficking. The performance braids together the fabric of poetry, Negro Spirituals and movement in an effort to shine a light upon the extraordinarily similar threads that run between present day human sex trafficking and past day African-American slavery. The crisis of sex trafficking/slavery is widespread and affects youth of all races, cultures, and socio-economic levels. Echo seeks to search out the lessons of the past, bring the lessons into the future, speak to the need of restoration, and tweak hearts into action.

Echo premiered April 2010 at the venue location of Central Works Theater (located in the Berkeley City Club, Berkeley, Ca) and played to sold out performances during the entire run. Echo is written and directed by Poet and Oakland, Ca native Regina Y. Evans. The staging of Echo is a collaborative effort birthed out of the hearts of many compassionate and talented individuals.

The premiere of Echo was co sponsored by: M.I.S.S.S.E.Y., Not For Sale Campaign, Chab Dai, Project Exodus, The Renew Project, The Underground Youth Movement (Sequoyah Community Church), Nia Kotobalavu (Epic Bloom), and Sarai Theolinda Smith (Dreamcatchers Runaway and Homeless Youth Services, Youth Director and M.I.S.S.S.E.Y., Co Founder).

50 percent of all proceeds were donated to M.I.S.S.S.E.Y andDreamCatchers Runaway and Homeless Youth Services.

My heartfelt thanks to the co sponsors (please see the end of this blog entry for co sponsor websites), actors, production crew, and everyone who came out to support the premiere of Echo: A Poetic Journey Into Justice. A massive thank you to Central Works Theater (http://www.centralworks.org) for donating their beautiful theater space. We were blessed enough to have overflowing audiences every night. And more importantly, those overflowing audiences asked questions after the performances! Questions on how to be involved in the fight against sex trafficking/slavery. The point of it all. Sex trafficking/slavery is a national and international crisis. The following quote from M.I.S.S.S.E.Y. Co Founder Nola Brantley is quite telling:

"Some of the children that our team encountered had been forced into prostitution by brutal pimps. Yet others were homeless children coerced into exchanging sexual favors for a bed and a warm plate of food. It is not unusual to see children as young as nine being approached by depraved johns. These are young human beings who need our attention, love and support. We know that through raising the awareness of all people to confront the needs of our most vulnerable children, we can create change in our communities and for our children. Some call the exploitation of young children for sexual purposes, the crisis of our ...time. Don't let the crisis happen in front of your eyes, get involved and change lives!"

The Echo team is currently in the process of setting up additional viewings of Echo. My greatest wish is that Echo be used as an awareness raising tool. Sex trafficking is such a huge problem and many people are not aware of how to engage this beast. In light of this, after each showing skilled individuals who work within the Anti Sex Trafficking Movement are provided with an opportunity to address the audience during a panel discussion/Q&A.

I look forward to seeing you at a future show!

Peace

***********

Echo: A Poetic Journey Into Justice Premiere/Co Sponsor Websites:

Not For Sale Campaign http://www.notforsalecampaign.org

Chab Dai www.chabdai.org

M.I.S.S.S.E.Y http://www.misssey.org/index.html

Project Exodus http://www.project-exodus.org

DreamCatchers Runaway and Homeless Youth Services http://www.alamedafs.org

Epic Bloom www.epicbloom.blogspot.com

The Renew Project http://www.therenewproject.org

The Underground Youth Movement http://www.sequoyahcommunitychurch.org

peace

HOME, Book Excerpt

Once upon a beautifully clear and sunny day I had a dream. You know the kind. When you wake and you can't distinguish as to whether what transpired actually occurred in real time or in dream time. As I remember it, there was nothing particulary extra special about that afternoon. I was living out and relishing in the feel of being enveloped within the core of my passion. Destiny's feet had lead me to The Land Down Under where she planted me in a gem of a city called Sydney. A bedazzling place which is well noted for its beautiful beaches, white silky sands and gloriously blue skies. There I had founded and operated my own little slice of heaven. A vintage clothing boutique. The Diva's Closet. It was a magnificent treasure. I reckoned that it was a beautiful gift from The Almighty. I had always felt the name to be appropriate when referring to women. Diva. All women were Divas, I reasoned. Created to be admired for their strength of character, loved for the faith which roamed within their beings, and revered for their innate beauty. A world without Divas would be a dreary place indeed. In fact, humanity could not exist without a multitude of Divas dancing upon Planet Earth. Afterall, women are the bearers of Life. Even Jesus Christ, the Ultimate Saviour, had been incubated inside of the womb of the heroic Diva named Mary.Truth.

The boutique was a space where the world's most fabulous Divas called Any Woman could leave their cares behind, sit back, and natter on excitedly about their day. And all the while, enjoy the simplicity of a cup of tea and a sumptuous piece of cake. To top it all off? They could float out the door upon a cloud with the most divine vintage frock that any one person ever did see. Let me tell you, there was nothing ordinary about these dresses. They were, like the women who enjoyed their beauty, exceedingly extraordinary. There is a certain species of dress which instinctively inspires squeals and twirls of delight. I stocked them in my boutique in abundance. It was in these twirls that I began to realize the ultimate creativity of The Dream Maker. In my eyes, The Almighty was proving to be the most amazing designer ever known to womankind. He was adept at knowing how to dress the outer silhouette of a woman, and at the same time drape her spirit with a fitting garment of praise. No minor feat. I was happy to be His sidekick and, a bit bemused that He would allow me to come along for the ride. I learned to prance around inside of encouragement and inspiration as if they were a pair of gloriously made leather stilettos. Blessings spilled forth from my lips and into my customers in hopes of negating the curses that would have surely taken up residence in their souls throughout the week. My mission in life took on the art form of tying compassion around weary wrists. I sought to be a perfectionist at blending everlasting joy into battered hearts. I was living my dream. I was walking right in the middle of my God destiny. I just knew it to be true. Or so I thought.

(continued in next entry)

HOME, continued.... (Book Excerpt)

(continued....)


On The Day Of The Dream, as I now refer to it, my whole world would begin to crumble. I had just bid adieu to my midday client. As she left I could feel my eyes grasping onto the edge of drowsiness. My half way shut lids made the decision to take a quick cat nap. A mini Siesta as it was called in some parts of the world. I grabbed a 1920's beautifully embroidered piano shawl and tucked it around my body as I fell off of a cliff into a deep sleep. In the dream, I remember being in a state of panic. My heart was pounding and my brow sweating. A still wind seemed to pervade my being. As I peered into my dream I could hardly believe what my spirit was viewing. My whole precious business completely dissappeared. Right down a rabbit hole and into a ball of nothingness called confusion. A living nightmare. There where no beautiful twirly 1950's cocktail frocks, no frilly Victorian Jackets, and no cheeky 20's Flappers dresses. Beauty, as I knew it, had dissolved into thin air. Such a thing, even in a dream, is hard to fathom. In my humanness I reasoned that it could only be the workings of an evil twist of fate. Only darkness would allow for a funeral of one’s hopes, desires, and passions. Destiny had somehow walked out the door on me. And I didn't even get a chance to say: "So long to you Ms. Destiny. Maybe we will meet up again one day." No. She just decided that it was time for her to go, packed her bags without my knowing, and drifted out the back door. And to make matters worse? She didn't even leave a note behind to bid me farewell. She let me find out the hard way…in an empty dream.

The next reel of my dream had me running full throttle out the door and into the business next door. I began screaming: "WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BUSINESS?" “I don't know," was my neighbor’s calm response. And with those words I began to wake. And at the same time I knew that something in me had died in that dream. It was a strange and unusual feeling. Being awakened to what now had passed away. Unbeknownst to me I was at the beginning stages of my learning how to stare straight into extreme surrender's eyes. It was the start of my spirit moving into a new house. And the shingle on my new home would read: Desperate Faith. Not long after The Day Of The Dream, I left the beautiful haven called Australia. I gave away and sold the majority of my belongings. I bid teary and heart wrenching goodbyes to my friends and to my world as I knew it. At the age of 45 years old I returned "home" with two half empty suitcases and precious few dollars. 68 to be precise. One never forgets such a paltry sum. What lay behind me was a country that I loved, friends that I adored, and a business which God had allowed my creative heart to enjoy. Mainly I felt as if I had left behind my destiny. My mission field for inspiration now lay in smouldering flames. It was a spectacular downfall.

For some time afterwards my beautiful world resembled an unshapen heap of puzzle pieces which lay upon a dark and unfamiliar landscape. It seemed as if each one of those pieces had the words "I DON'T KNOW" written upon them. My spirit refused to understand how God could have allowed me to build such a beautiful little hidden jewel of inspiration only to dismantle it in a blink of His eye. As I began to ponder the enormity of God and His unfathomable ways a glimmer of knowing began to dawn in me. Part of the answer was in the word "hidden". God had been incubating me with the purpose of teaching me about the wonders of His divine character. In doing so, He had been growing and strengthening my spirit for new mountains to conquer and new streams to rule. God, it seemed, had been meticulously preparing me to out run the wind. I had overgrown my precious space. It was just that simple. Now it was time for me to open the door, pull back the curtains, and bolt into the wide open space. You see, I was born to fly. Now I know that there are some who will smirk at what I am about to write but it truly comes from the depths of my spirit: I believe that I am a dancing yellow butterfly. I was borne to soar across the vivid blue skies of life. And a cocoon, even if it is decorated with the most gorgeous of frocks, is no place to remain if the tug of flight is pulling upon one's coattails. It was time for me to take my first fledgling flight. Well, at the very least it was time for me to line up on the runway and prepare for lift off.


****note: I am leaving this because I am feeling as if Christ is beckoning many to GO! So do. Just that. GO! No matter, in spite of. Go. A very short word. Two letters, in fact. ****


(Excerpt from the book Home, by Regina Evans, Copyright 2008: Regina Y. Evans)